Reset

After a week of camping, I have come to the conclusion that I need to reset.

I miss running.  I miss how it made me feel, how I looked and the race medals.

I miss lifting weights.  The pure join of feeling strong, pushing my body to places I didn’t think possible and sweating.

After two weeks of eating whatever I wanted I feel blah, I don’t like the way my body is functioning and  I really dont like the way my body looks.

I find it crazy how quickly a person can become out of shape, I am there.  I have become the overweight unfit person again.

I am struggling to find my why.  It use to be that I wanted to play with my kids and be a healthy example for my daughter.

It doesn’t feel like a enough any more.  Of course I have a picture of myself in my mind of what I want to look like, however i am not sure my body can ever look like that.  I want to be able to do certain types of exercise, but can I do them with the damage that is already done to my body.  I have so much doubt on myself.  I have no faith in myself.  It is the yo-yo happening all over again.  My body is really happy where it is weight wise, however I am not.  I don’t like the rolls, I hate getting dressed in the morning, I feel like I am failing people.

I woke up yesterday morning and decided to hit the reset button.  I have somehow lost the drive to maintain a fit and healthy lifestyle.  I have let other aspects of my life take over and finding the balance is tough.  I started the day with a workout and then a day of pampering in the city.  Putting food that I enjoy and is good for my body.

Today I am focusing more on getting caught up with business.  Getting some research done, getting projects finished, updating my website and still trying to be active and feeding my body.

My why is still unclear to me.  There are so many reasons that I want to be in shape and healthy, I just need to pinpoint the one reason that really drives me that I don’t want to give up on.

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Quitter

QuIT

Is quitting good or bad?

I think it really depends on what you are quitting.  However in most cases quitting is good.

I was raised that if you quit you failed.  You were weak and it wasn’t a good thing to do.  It didn’t matter how much it was hurting you, mentally, physically or in any way.  I was taught to just deal with it and push on.

In the recent months and weeks I have quit several things and each time it was really really difficult.  This nagging voice in the back of my head telling me that I was weak, that I was giving up too soon, that my family and friends were going to think less of me.  Even that you my readers would stop reading.  But guess what. It has felt great and amazing.

The more time I think about quitting the harder it becomes for me to find something that is negative about quitting.  Don’t get me wrong there are some things that are good to quit. For the most part it is a good thing to quit.

Think of all the benefits of quitting, it usually makes you healthier, happier, maybe even make you a little wealthier.  Yep you read that right, quitting can actually make you wealthier.  Take a minute and think about it.  I will give you two examples of how quitting can make you wealthier.  First example.  I quit drinking alcohol , this one is very easy to see how I can save.  I no longer have to spend money buying the actual drink, I don’t have to pay cover to get into a bar, I don’t have to pay for the taxi ride home, or if I chose to drive the possibility of having to pay for a DUI and if that happened the money coming out of my pocket is going to drastically change.  This example is easy to see the cost and how quitting will actually save you money.  The next one is one that I recently did and not normally thought of as a money saver.  Quitting a job.  This is one that I recently did and I had to spend lots of time actually thinking and planning to see if it will save you money like it saved me.  My amount of pay almost didn’t cover the cost of my fuel to get to work and hiring a sitter for the summer, plus the addition that my business was no longer getting the attention that it needed so my sales began to drop.  With me quitting my job I am able to put the time back into my business and make more then when I was working for someone else part time.

Now please everyone don’t run out and quit your job because it saves me money.  Sit down and actually figure it out.  As with anything you plan on quitting make sure it will better you in some way.  Maybe it makes you a better mom, a happier partner, or even just a better you.

The list of things that one can quit is long and never ending.  If you can do it you can quit it.  It all depends on how it impacts your life.

I could share with you all the things that I have quit in my adult life however that list is long and would bore you to death.  So instead here is a list of the things that I have quit that makes me the best me that I can be today.

I Quit:

Living for other people

Dieting

My out of home job

Hating my body

Being perfect

 

Do you need to quit something and your not sure how, do any of my recent quits sound really interesting to you.  Please reach out to me and I will do my best to help you with your challenges.  Make sure to hit the follow button to get notified of weekly blogs.  or contact me with any questions.

I am proud to be a quitter

farmfitma

Project Me

I will be the first to admit that project me was not my idea.  A friend actually came up with the idea and I asked if I could join/steal her idea.  Thankfully she said yes.

There is no specific plan to this project.  It is just about me fine tuning me.  Finding out what makes me happy, what helps my business and what encourages the most Oola in my life.

I would like to share with you a few of the things that I have done so far in project me.

The first thing I did was decide to get a blood analysis done.  I have always wanted to get one done, just never made the time.  I bought the groupon now I just need to make the appointment.

Then I made the choice to no longer diet.  I cant remember the last time I didn’t diet and well it gets very frustrating to always be trying a new way of eating while always feeling like you are missing out on something.  I now eat what I want and what my body is craving and that is it.

Remove or distance toxic relationships.  This is by far the hardest one.  People who have been a part of my life for a very long time, friends and family members.  Some of them its a simple as a click of the unfollow button, some get unfriend and some get blocked.  It also means that I don’t have conversations or spend much time with people who use to take lots of my time.  The biggest one on this topic has been quitting my job.  I have only been working for a short period of time however it was becoming very toxic.

I joined a summer exercise challenge.  Where I set goals for myself exercise wise and have a entire group to encourage and help me keep to the goals I have set.  It also means that I get to help others too.  Which is something I love to do.

I signed up to be a Young Living Oils distributor.  We use oils lots in our home and this is a great way to use more and share my knowledge and love of them.  Young Living also is partnered with Oola.  Which you all know I LOVE.  A friend and I are in the planning stages of an Oola event.  Contact me if you want to be part of it.

It has only been a few short weeks since I started this and only a couple of days since making some of the biggest changes.  I am already seeing and feeling a difference.  I am sleeping better, I have more energy, I am happier and my family and friends want to spend time around me.  It is awesome.

If you would like some help coming up with your own project me plan, or want info on Oola, Young Living or anything else that I have mentioned please reach out and contact me.

See you next week

Farmfitma