Reset

After a week of camping, I have come to the conclusion that I need to reset.

I miss running.  I miss how it made me feel, how I looked and the race medals.

I miss lifting weights.  The pure join of feeling strong, pushing my body to places I didn’t think possible and sweating.

After two weeks of eating whatever I wanted I feel blah, I don’t like the way my body is functioning and  I really dont like the way my body looks.

I find it crazy how quickly a person can become out of shape, I am there.  I have become the overweight unfit person again.

I am struggling to find my why.  It use to be that I wanted to play with my kids and be a healthy example for my daughter.

It doesn’t feel like a enough any more.  Of course I have a picture of myself in my mind of what I want to look like, however i am not sure my body can ever look like that.  I want to be able to do certain types of exercise, but can I do them with the damage that is already done to my body.  I have so much doubt on myself.  I have no faith in myself.  It is the yo-yo happening all over again.  My body is really happy where it is weight wise, however I am not.  I don’t like the rolls, I hate getting dressed in the morning, I feel like I am failing people.

I woke up yesterday morning and decided to hit the reset button.  I have somehow lost the drive to maintain a fit and healthy lifestyle.  I have let other aspects of my life take over and finding the balance is tough.  I started the day with a workout and then a day of pampering in the city.  Putting food that I enjoy and is good for my body.

Today I am focusing more on getting caught up with business.  Getting some research done, getting projects finished, updating my website and still trying to be active and feeding my body.

My why is still unclear to me.  There are so many reasons that I want to be in shape and healthy, I just need to pinpoint the one reason that really drives me that I don’t want to give up on.

Quitter

QuIT

Is quitting good or bad?

I think it really depends on what you are quitting.  However in most cases quitting is good.

I was raised that if you quit you failed.  You were weak and it wasn’t a good thing to do.  It didn’t matter how much it was hurting you, mentally, physically or in any way.  I was taught to just deal with it and push on.

In the recent months and weeks I have quit several things and each time it was really really difficult.  This nagging voice in the back of my head telling me that I was weak, that I was giving up too soon, that my family and friends were going to think less of me.  Even that you my readers would stop reading.  But guess what. It has felt great and amazing.

The more time I think about quitting the harder it becomes for me to find something that is negative about quitting.  Don’t get me wrong there are some things that are good to quit. For the most part it is a good thing to quit.

Think of all the benefits of quitting, it usually makes you healthier, happier, maybe even make you a little wealthier.  Yep you read that right, quitting can actually make you wealthier.  Take a minute and think about it.  I will give you two examples of how quitting can make you wealthier.  First example.  I quit drinking alcohol , this one is very easy to see how I can save.  I no longer have to spend money buying the actual drink, I don’t have to pay cover to get into a bar, I don’t have to pay for the taxi ride home, or if I chose to drive the possibility of having to pay for a DUI and if that happened the money coming out of my pocket is going to drastically change.  This example is easy to see the cost and how quitting will actually save you money.  The next one is one that I recently did and not normally thought of as a money saver.  Quitting a job.  This is one that I recently did and I had to spend lots of time actually thinking and planning to see if it will save you money like it saved me.  My amount of pay almost didn’t cover the cost of my fuel to get to work and hiring a sitter for the summer, plus the addition that my business was no longer getting the attention that it needed so my sales began to drop.  With me quitting my job I am able to put the time back into my business and make more then when I was working for someone else part time.

Now please everyone don’t run out and quit your job because it saves me money.  Sit down and actually figure it out.  As with anything you plan on quitting make sure it will better you in some way.  Maybe it makes you a better mom, a happier partner, or even just a better you.

The list of things that one can quit is long and never ending.  If you can do it you can quit it.  It all depends on how it impacts your life.

I could share with you all the things that I have quit in my adult life however that list is long and would bore you to death.  So instead here is a list of the things that I have quit that makes me the best me that I can be today.

I Quit:

Living for other people

Dieting

My out of home job

Hating my body

Being perfect

 

Do you need to quit something and your not sure how, do any of my recent quits sound really interesting to you.  Please reach out to me and I will do my best to help you with your challenges.  Make sure to hit the follow button to get notified of weekly blogs.  or contact me with any questions.

I am proud to be a quitter

farmfitma

Project Me

I will be the first to admit that project me was not my idea.  A friend actually came up with the idea and I asked if I could join/steal her idea.  Thankfully she said yes.

There is no specific plan to this project.  It is just about me fine tuning me.  Finding out what makes me happy, what helps my business and what encourages the most Oola in my life.

I would like to share with you a few of the things that I have done so far in project me.

The first thing I did was decide to get a blood analysis done.  I have always wanted to get one done, just never made the time.  I bought the groupon now I just need to make the appointment.

Then I made the choice to no longer diet.  I cant remember the last time I didn’t diet and well it gets very frustrating to always be trying a new way of eating while always feeling like you are missing out on something.  I now eat what I want and what my body is craving and that is it.

Remove or distance toxic relationships.  This is by far the hardest one.  People who have been a part of my life for a very long time, friends and family members.  Some of them its a simple as a click of the unfollow button, some get unfriend and some get blocked.  It also means that I don’t have conversations or spend much time with people who use to take lots of my time.  The biggest one on this topic has been quitting my job.  I have only been working for a short period of time however it was becoming very toxic.

I joined a summer exercise challenge.  Where I set goals for myself exercise wise and have a entire group to encourage and help me keep to the goals I have set.  It also means that I get to help others too.  Which is something I love to do.

I signed up to be a Young Living Oils distributor.  We use oils lots in our home and this is a great way to use more and share my knowledge and love of them.  Young Living also is partnered with Oola.  Which you all know I LOVE.  A friend and I are in the planning stages of an Oola event.  Contact me if you want to be part of it.

It has only been a few short weeks since I started this and only a couple of days since making some of the biggest changes.  I am already seeing and feeling a difference.  I am sleeping better, I have more energy, I am happier and my family and friends want to spend time around me.  It is awesome.

If you would like some help coming up with your own project me plan, or want info on Oola, Young Living or anything else that I have mentioned please reach out and contact me.

See you next week

Farmfitma

Finance

Welcome to week three.

Each week I struggle with deciding which topic to discuss.  Something always comes you to make the choice very clear. Yesterday I was having a visit with a close friend and we were discussing my kids and money.  She looked me straight in the eye and said “You should write a blog about that”.  So is born today’s blog.

Money the root of all evil.  The number one cause of fights in relationships.  The one thing we all want more of.

Last year in August my husband and I became tired of living paycheck to paycheck.  We are a single income family and he makes good money, however we were living above our means.

We all learn about money from our parents.  They may not sit down and have a discussion about how they handle their money, we do watch them and learn from example.  This is the exact same thing our kids do.

My husband and I were living a life of if we could afford the payment then we could afford whatever we were looking for.  It was becoming over whelming keeping track of all the payments.  It got to the point we were taking from one credit to pay another card and the cycle looked like it was never going to end.  We were sitting on the deck enjoying a cold drink when he mentioned a book that his wife and he had read and they had been following for sometime and they could now see the light at the end of the tunnel.  That week I went out and bought the book.  The Total Money Makeover, by Dave Ramsey.  Both Farmfitpa and I read the book and in August we started the program.

We have a date when the only payment that we have will be our mortgage.  October 21, 2021.  It seems so far away yet so close at the very same time.

How are we doing it? Well I recommend you buy the book or listen to Dave Ramsey’s podcast.  Our short version is that we have a budget that we are sticking to, we are paying extra onto our debt every check, we are clearing out the house, garage, barn and selling anything that no longer in use or has value to us.  Farmfitpa is picking ot when possible and doing the odd side job.  I have found some part-time work that I will be starting next week.  We are only buying things that we need not the things we want. Both of us are shoppers and this is really tough.  We talk once or more a week about where our money is going.  This is the biggest part that is helping us the most.  We both can see that the other is working hard at learning new habits and talking about it makes it so much easier.

We are also taking this time to teach money smarts to our kids.  Some of the things that we have instill in them are as follows:

  • 1/2 of your pay goes into savings
  • give money to charity/church each check
  • know what you want to purchase and save for it
  • you don’t do your work you don’t get paid

You may be thinking how can an 8 and 10-year-old understand having a job well.  We raise chickens and each of the kids is responsible for an aspect of keeping chickens.  At the end of the month we take all the money from selling eggs and split it.  That is where they get most of their money.  My 10 year old also started her own saddle cleaning business and has done well with that.

We are hoping that teaching them young they wont run into the same mountain of debt that we have.

As with other weeks here are the short and long-term goals that Farmfitpa and I have in the finance category:

Short term

  • pay off next debt by October 2017
  • post at least one item a week for sale
  • a minimum of $100 a month extra onto debt

Long term

  • Be debt free
  • have a net worth of a million dollars

One of the quotes that I am living by right now to help me get through these tight times is ; Live like no one else today, so that I can live and give like no one else.  Dave Ramsey.

Have more questions for me about Finance please feel to contact me and ask away

 

Leeanne

 

Improvments

I am about 5 weeks out from my half marathon and I will not lie, the training is starting to wear on me.  Running 4-5 times a week is getting old and with the weather getting nice, I want to be spending more time in the saddle.

This week is a taper week for me.  The training plan that I am following has a taper week every third week.  I am taking this week to think about where I am and where I was last year at this point.

I will say that I am glad you guys are reading this and its not me telling you.  If we were sitting across from each other I would be crying.  Just so you know I am crying as I write this.  On each difference that I am noticing I will first share what is happening this year and then what was happening last year.

First off.  This year I love to run, I enjoy every run, even the ones that I have to finish at a walk.  Even when the runs don’t go as I planned.  When I am slower then I want to be, I am not beating myself up, instead I am looking at how good I am feeling at the end of each run.  Last year I had to make myself run every run, at this point I was dreading each and every run.  I would push myself so hard last year and knock myself down over and over after each run  telling myself how much better I could be doing.

After I run I feel amazing.  My left hip and calf are a little sore.  I foam roll after almost every run.  I am stretching before each run.  I can run in the morning and continue with my day.  I have a very good recovery time.  Last year at the end of my run I was done, depleted, and completely done.  I was not foam rolling, and I was not stretching.  I was very unproductive after my runs.  I would have to take Advil before going to bed so I cold sleep.  I had horrible recovery.

Massage and Chiropractic Care

I get a massage every three weeks and it hurts.  It hurts oh so much.  However the moment I walk out of the office I feel like a brand new woman.  We are focusing on my legs and lower back.  The results that I am seeing are amazing.  I go to the chiropractor every three to four weeks, for maintenance.  I am having no huge concerns with either one.  Last year I was also getting massages every three weeks during training, however we were working mostly on my back and shoulders.  i was going through some huge personal events last year and carrying so much tension.  As for seeing the chiropractor.  At this point I was seeing Dr. Kiva three times a week for two weeks and then, once a week until just after my race.

The biggest and most rewarding part of this years training is that its for me.  I am healthy and happier going into this years training.  I am running for me.  I already know I can do it.  I know that I can run 21 km, I know what I am going to feel like after the race and the next day.  I am going to savor every moment of my training and my race.  I did the training and ran last year to prove to others that I could do.  To show all the naysayers that they were wrong.  I was distracted by so many different things during my race, and after.  I was so focused on others and not at all on my self.

 

This year I am so in love with this and even though there are days that I have to drag my feet out the door or onto the treadmill.  I am enjoying this and am enjoying watching my times improve, my form improve and most important that I am doing this with very little pain.

Thank you to all who are supporting and cheering me on this year.

 

Leeanne

 

 

 

Choices

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I am all about personal development and goals this year.  This means I am reading lots, of books, following inspiring people on social media and listening to many podcasts. Look at the bottom of this blog for my favorites.  The one thing I find that lots of these things have in common is how they stress the importance of the choices that we make.

I can give you a million (well maybe not a million) excuses as to why I have not achieved many of my goals over the years.  However in reality I didn’t reach these goals because of the choices that I made.  Call it low self-esteem, self sabotage or lazy. It is ony because I made the choices that I felt were easier at the time.

Now that I recognize that I have to make harder choices.  It means digging deep and being really raw with myself.  Some of the choices that I may make will be hard on other people, the thing that I have to remember is that it is about how it makes me feel not how other people feel.  Dont get me wrong I am not going out there to try to hurt people, I am going out there to be the best me possible.  

The choices we have to make daily are everything from very simple to very complex. Many of the choices that we make we don’t even know we are making them.  Those are the ones that could be impacting your life the most.  The little choices that I make that have become habits can be the ones that are damaging me the most.  Reaching for the sweet food instead of the veggie or fruit.  Having a cup of coffee instead of a glass of water. There are the ones that are going to impact not only me, but my husband and kids.  A new job, a new aspect to the farm, or plans for the new yard site.

This year is the year where I will be making my choices for me and not anyone else.  I will also be teaching my kids how to make the right choices for them, I will honouring the choices those around me make and I will not beat myself up for making a bad choice.

Working on yourself is not selfish it’s selfless

 

Here are my favorites for the year so far, You can search and find them on most social media.

  • Lori Harder
  • Lewis Howes (just started his book)
  • OolaGuru and Oolaseeker  the book OOLA Life is the top of my favorite list
  • Gary Tomas
  • Happier with Gretchen Rubin (podcast)
  • The Yes Effect (podcast)
  • Fallon Taylor
  • Dr. John Demartini

My people that inspire me the most are those that are in my squad.  I  love these girls, they truly help me be the best me.